Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Running Away From, To and For

I spend my life running away from things. Since 2003 I have been walking an even bigger tightrope than I anticipated. In 2003, something drastic happened. I had to stop running. I wasn't ready, and continued running away. In 2004 I met my husband. In that time I stopped running and began to face myself. Bit by bit, I'm trying to do things that make me happy, and deal with my demons. Probably why this year has been turning out to be a monumental one for me. One of some pretty big changes.

I started running in 2009, and then took a bit of a hiatus after my last child. I was extremely overweight. Extremely stuck in where I was, who I was and what I wanted. Seven plus years and I was still where I was then. At least that is how I felt. Some things had changed. My job, the number of children I had, both good things. They only held off so much thought and pain. I needed to get out of my head, so I decided to learn to take care of myself. In this post, I made the announcement that my goal was to lose 50 pounds by the end of 2012. I struggled until April with this. I was having some health issues and thought my weight was due to that. Well, it turns out, I just needed to rest and wait until the baby was finished nursing, then focus on what I was putting into my mouth. (Yes, I am doing the dreaded calorie counting) We did find out I have a medical issue that needs surgery, but I'll leave that for another post. My husband started it, then I followed. I dropped 18lbs and surpassed my goal that I set for another change in my life this year. I wrote several blog posts on this. Today I am now down a total of 26 pounds, only 24 more to go.
This is me when we went to go see my very first Cirque De Soleil show. I was 206lbs.

This is what 179 looks like. Most days the only way I see the difference is by the way my clothes feel. I no longer buy XL and now am in a L. I don't want to just look thinner to everyone around me, I want to see it when I look at myself. I want this bigger visual of myself gone.

I have been having a rough time losing my weight, I have been emotional eating, but recommitting to not doing that. And in turn, I have amped up my workout and instead of Running Away, I am now Running To and For something.

I am running back to a healthier me. My next goal is getting down to 165lbs for September 10, 2012. That will be my 7th Wedding Anniversary to my incredibly amazing and supportive husband. He has never seen me weigh less than 176lbs. This will be one of the gifts to him and of course myself.

I am running for this Winnipeg Fire Paramedic Half Marathon I'm hoping to raise $250.00. My donation page here. I am also running for the kids at Kalinovka. It all started here with my friend Jane. Her heart knows no bounds. To join in her fundraising efforts I want to raise $250.00 for the kids at Kalinovka. Donate anything from $1 plus. That cup of coffee at Starbucks is typically more, so donate the cost of that cup. Give up that Slurpee for the day. You can send your donations via Paypal to it as a gift and write in the tagline that it's for The Happy Home, and on October 18, 2012 I will take the money in the account and donate it all to the Happy Home fund. Or you can donate straight to the site here. Just remember to email me, or comment on this post about how much you donated. I will be posting running tallies.

I am also raising money for Bobby's Fund. To help him find his "Forever Family" for every Cuddly I sell I will be donating $5 to Bobby's fund. All funds will be put in on October 18th. Jane's hoping to raise a total of $5,000 she is at $363.00. Let's help her smash that total!

So what am I doing for all of this?

This is my race day outfit. Each week I'll be adding ribbons to my hair for my training runs. Every so often I'll be adding something new to my outfit and then on race day I will take one final picture.

This is the even bigger commitment. I'm going rainbow! I don't know if this is the end product or if I'll go wilder, but it will be stuck in my hair for a while. I'll be a walking billboard for The WPFS, the kids at Kalinovka and Bobby. How about you help me in my efforts. Let's do this together!


  1. That's awesome! Good for you for coming back to it, I would like to be in that place too - great job sticking with it!

  2. So cool! Good for you. Wow I have no motivation to exercise at all. I can't find it. But I keep trying.

    1. I"m running for an end result. Not sure if I would run a full half without it lol

  3. Good luck with your weight loss journey and your running goals!!! Keep up all the good work :-) It can be tough some days but you can do it!


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