I'm having a really hard time with things as of late. My maternity leave is up in less than two months. I really am not ready to leave my last baby. Yet, at the same time, I cannot wait to do something besides be around my children all the time. I love them. I just have no me time. I also have nothing that makes me feel like I'm doing something worth while (for myself that is), which puts me in a pretty big funk. Up until last year I worked in fields out of necessity, not because it was something I wanted to do. Then I found my current position. I love my job. The satisfaction I get from it, the money doesn't hurt of course, the people I get to meet. The things I get to learn. I am always learning something new. I really enjoy that. I like things with structure, but for some reason at work I crave things without structure. Then last week I got the news that I need to try and find another position or the other option is being laid off due to a decision they made. I get it. I am not the only one who is thrown this wrench. I just didn't think I'd be sitting right back where I was just when my maternity leave for my daughter was up.
Limbo and I don't work well together. I naturally worry. A lot. So when Limbo and I have to work together, I typically turn into a nutcase. I'm trying to avoid Limbo. I am NOT embracing Limbo at all. There is no fun in this, just a looming clock and it's annoying "tick" "tock", "tick" "tock", over my head. I cannot afford daycare, plus I am the taxi for both hubby and kindergartener. Not that I mind. I actually enjoy this position, it's just that most day and evening jobs don't. I also don't want to work every single weekend. I don't think I should have to give up my weekends with my husband just to make money. Besides birthday parties typically don't work so well during the week. So I need something I can do from home on my time. Not as easy to find as you would think.
I have been given suggestions like home parties. I did Meleluca and Discovery Toys at one point in time. I guarantee you I really suck at sales. Ask me to promote one of my friends stuff and no problem. As me to sell something of my own. Not happening. I have a hard time when it comes to asking people for money. Not sure why. Maybe I need to go to therapy for that one.
Anyways, this is where I am and have been for a couple of weeks now. So what on earth do I do with myself now to make some moolah?