Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Early Morning Mind Wanderers March 22 2011

I can't breathe.

It hurts.

Time keeps moving in and out

Like waves crashing over my mind.

I prayed for this

for the pain to end not the life

the life had to go so the pain could too.

God walks with her

I know this brings her peace.

It should bring me some,

instead it makes me numb.

Maybe if I focus on her life.

Maybe if I imagine what it's like to walk with God.

Maybe this, Maybe that

I feel sick

the bile rises to my throat

I feel angry

the scream bounces on the porous walls of my skull



Some tears have flowed

Others remain locked up tight in the drum of my heart

My soul tries to make sense of the senseless



  1. Sorry to hear you're feeling so down. Wish I could take your pain away for you. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts. Hope you're ok!

  2. I am so very sorry for your loss and the pain that you are going through. Cancer is awful, simply awful. (((hugs)))


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